Confused....

I don't know why... I finally got my wish after two years wait.. close to three years.. she's back... she contacted me.... but I don't feel happy... the feeling is different already... Why? Isn't this what I always look forward to?

In fact, I'm starting to run.. run away from her.. the girl I'm waiting for all this time... the girl I always look for in the crowd... the girl that has always been in my mind all these while... Have I already let go without me knowing? Have I really lost all feelings? Even the ones I used to had for her? Why.. am I not happy as I thought I'll be?

It's like the return of a stranger I'm so familar with....

Confused........................................... I don't understand myself anymore.....